our permanence

Wait-

2009-06-14T18:20:01Z

I think Alicia is really quite a beautiful girl. Some new works with her, and well, just in total still up to my neck with the magazine I work for. Also, I've got to update on I have to update my portfolio soon. It's been down too much.

I'm thinking of moving back to LJ (yeah.) Tumblr's just really bad with updates. And the tumblarity thing is just way too much for me. I have no idea yet. No one really reads anyway, just glad to be here. Hola. Hahaha.. :]

gorgonzolah @ 2009-06-14T23:29:00

2009-06-14T17:40:20Z

Ok. hahah.

WORK

2009-05-25T16:08:43Z

As the exhibition date draws nearer, all of us are more or less in a heightened state of frenzy. So I've been preparing for stuff. Little pieces here and there, helping out friends and things like that. CAN'T WAIT FOR NUDE&PRINT TO START! All is working well, more or less all my friends are safe. I've realised these days there's this insane trend of adoring good-looking caucasian guys and girls. Everyone talks about models and european fashion shows yada yada. No doubt they're pretty to look at, but what's so wrong with the tinier eyes and bigger noses that we have? What a shame we are subconsciously denying our roots. I'm asian and I might not look all blond haired blue eyed, but that doesn't make me any less inadequate of ideals and importance. Maybe we should stop all this bullshit degradation of our own significance and volunteering podium status to people half way around the world. In other strange lands.

Since shooting the foreign bangladeshi workers on sunday, I've kinda gotten new found respect for their efforts to succeed in life.

JUST HAD AN EGGTART ME MEEEAAATTTLOVERS.

LARA.

2009-05-22T00:33:43Z

HELLO UNIVERSE. WELCOME EARTH.

2009-05-21T03:07:18Z

http://www.flickr.com/photos/markweaver

Work has finally started. I'm finding myself struggling with a few jobs at hand. Yesterday, we went to Basheer to look for inspiration... regrettably all the nice magazines were sold out (Lula, A Magazine etc.) so while the trip was coming to an almost near flop, I saw GREAT BRITISH EDITORIAL on the shelf. "Oh oh! You gotta see this book, it's really really awesome," I flipped through it to let her have a look. All my Art Director did was take the 600pp+ book, turn it around, found it affordable at SGD 64, and bought it. So all my efforts for making trips down to PAGEONE just to browse it is over. I don't understand yet how adults can spend money so easily. Maybe because they actually do have money. "We'll take it," she said, and I'm the happiest man alive. For now.

:D :D :D

HAI DOZO

2009-05-18T23:56:36Z

Koumi tags!

gorgonzolah @ 2009-05-06T14:15:00

2009-05-06T06:18:24Z

2 SGD for a magazine? Let's try.

WARM DAYS & NIGHTS

2009-05-05T09:04:55Z

Chia junior is sleeping soundly these few sweltering afternoons.

gorgonzolah @ 2009-05-03T02:40:00

2009-05-02T19:29:20Z

The more of the world I interact with, the more I realised we are all just one huge broken family.

Hey world, wish we all could be friends.

gorgonzolah @ 2009-05-02T10:20:00

2009-05-02T02:23:08Z

Mitchell Spider
from thecompanyofpeople

Catch & Release

2009-05-01T16:26:25Z

I apparently got the job I was applying for! HOORAY! I'm told to go down next Tuesday to discuss the details.

As of now, I am falling ill. Not a good sign for since we're at a Phase 5 epidemic worldwide. I'm certain something smells of vomit around me but I can't locate it. Maybe its my own barf in my stomach.

Maybe I'm just too happy I got a job.

gorgonzolah @ 2009-04-26T19:21:00

2009-04-26T11:23:07Z

Happy birthday friend. :)

gorgonzolah @ 2009-04-23T10:31:00

2009-04-23T02:50:44Z

I always had this idea that morality was a subject to a specific society, and it's interwoven into the greater body of humanity. So more or less it runs the same at the end of the day, be it if you're from Finland or Brunei.

But Nart did mention something along these lines when we were discussing the principles of photojournalism, that morality is rather more of an individual's ideals than anything else. I might not want to steal tie-dyes when I'm with someone who finds it wrong, but I might if I was alone. The Catholic Popes of yesteryears gave their silent nods to the torturing of thousands of people who contradict their faith. And now we call that inhumane. So who are we really to judge but ourselves and the ones who at the last moment of existence, relinquish their belief systems for their own safety.

Such disposition.

Sleep Is Better.

2009-04-16T17:02:05Z

Sometimes sleeping is better. Because the world is a dark and scary place sometimes, and even what seems to be most pure can actually not be pure. I finished two paintings, moving on to some slides and then hopefully get to do some album art. How about you?

gorgonzolah @ 2009-04-15T15:02:00

2009-04-15T07:06:17Z

was the most awesome experience.

gorgonzolah @ 2009-03-27T11:49:00

2009-03-27T03:52:38Z

Nammeecarrrddd

2009-03-26T01:29:11Z

This is the gist of how my namecard looks.
The idea was to have multi-coloured pieces of paper in-between black, though that isn't showing well in the photo, to illustrate how everyone looks mundane on the outside but it's the inside that matters. Took me awhile to get this done yesterday, while I was still sick. But thank God that's over. On to web portfolio!

amongst the obsoletes, we shine.

2009-03-13T02:52:54Z

My first real fashion photoshoot I guess. I like the results very much :)
do take a look at audrey's www.koumikoumi.com!

Waiting For This

2009-03-13T02:36:48Z

Can't wait to check out Tautou's performance. :}

gorgonzolah @ 2009-03-08T00:58:00

2009-03-07T17:00:27Z

If you do not already know, I have moved.

I loved this place. If you ask for a link, I'll give it :]

Will write once in awhile, and I am still reading friend's ljs!

Toodlemekats.

Sy.

gorgonzolah @ 2009-02-23T13:54:00

2009-02-23T05:55:15Z

Just suddenly thought of Lisa. Hope she's doing alright.

Oh heyyy ohhh

2009-02-21T21:09:34Z

I am sitting here listening to Woozy With Cider again. James Yorkston's voice is talking about his love, in the morning of the second day of summer in the city. He makes me smile sadly.

I just came back from Valkyrie with my cell. It was such an awesome movie, FIRST movie in two months at least. I've missed them tremendously, like how I miss everyone and regret to have been saying sorry to your plans with me over and over again. Thank you for remembering me, thank you to those who were here when I was soo soooo soooo stressed and I just needed to be around you and you made time for me. Thanks man.

So now that FYP is kinda over, I am really settling down and beginning to think of the future. What to do during this time before army, and settling to become more like a grownup and stop fooling around like a retard. Some projects maybe, tons of cleaning up to do, and talking to friends to start some design work. The last moments of tertiary education will make me miss it. I will miss all the breaks and Wen Hao's request for lunches and dinners. I will miss skating down the ramp with our faux boards from inside the digilab. Some cool shit that was. It's 4.16 am. And I can't sleep. Maybe its because of the already screwed up sleeping schedule I had since the start of these past two months, maybe its because I had too much coffee earlier. Either which I am Woozy With Excitement, for the new days to come ahead.

Some days now I trudge through the night in avid wonder. In wide amazement at the amount of strength God gives in mere nights like these. In my mind a whole myriad of emotions play out when the sun sets. And as the day closes I usually awake from my slumber, and the day begins for me. For the first time in a very long time, today, I just sit wide awake and I am thinking but not doing anything. Think, think, thinking, at everything and at nothing. At the universe and at the micro-organisms. At friends and at friends who used to be. It is as if for a lapse of time I am in sync with the momentum of the world. And when it dawns a new day I will be trying so hard to catch up with it again. But ah well, so would some crazy kick-ass people all around the world.

I think I've changed these past few months.
Just wanna do a good job at things now.
Wanna hang out and just wanna be disciplined.
And like, play lan or something. ahaha.
And be a good son
Be a good friend
Be ready to be used by God.

Snazzy stuff aside.
LET'S DO THIS.

gorgonzolah @ 2009-02-19T19:59:00

2009-02-19T12:14:12Z

I'm on the verge of throwing in the towel. And as I walk my exhausted self across the street to collect my book today, the second last day of submission, I sighed and got so depressed, the night sky seemed to insult me. The way it dimmed across my crown. My photoshop is lagging now. And I can do nothing but to wait for it to be alright again. And again and again I sigh. Teo posters and an RnD booklet to finish tonight. I think about how I'm 20 this year, and that sounds like I've passed through a heck of a few years, and I wonder what accomplishments I have made. I think about what I will do and become in the future, will I wanna just do my own work? Will I be surrendered to God's will? I realise I've been too harsh on myself. I thank all the smses and the prayers, I thank you all who have been my friends, I thank you for remembering me when its so tough for me. So what if my work sucks, or I get penalized? So what if I fail or pass fyp? So what? I think I'm just too negative at times. So what if I don't or do become a designer? I have learnt so much from FYP, I think my life structure has changed. What I can get I take, what I can't I give back down. Friends, I am saying that life is life, and some of us bloom later and some of us bloom earlier. We all deserve what we get because it is life. We can only make the most out of it, and push for it to become the best. We're all still young, still young at heart. All things are made fair by our own decisions and choices. And I'm not gonna sulk and give up anymore. I am proud of my work. I'm proud that this crazy, skewed, indecisive mind I had actually could submit some substantial work for fyp instead of floating pass the deadline. I am determined to try my best to be realistic and strive. And until I can say I have loved all my friends and done the most out of life, I will never stop trying to be humble and constantly trying to learn and improve.

I know You know what I mean.
PRAISE GOD

gorgonzolah @ 2009-02-16T02:45:00

2009-02-15T18:53:26Z

After FYP:
(in chronological order)

Cut my mohawk.
Play lan with nart and our crew. (YEEEAAAA YOU FEELING IT???!!)
Movie marathon in school with OUR PILLOWS
Sleep for three days
Do housework
Buy flowers for my mummy
Bring down the usage of internet by half.
Go swimming.
Start interviewing Franco
Illustrate.
Finish up Third Book
do my design show
Celebrate with my family.
Be an ass that sells my works to Creative Directors
Paint for friends in church
Freelance
Start workout regime like for real
Catch up with allll maaa khakiissssssss
Go overseas
Either a mission trip
Or to visit Tom (switzerland)
or going with school friends (will pray where to go)
Look through overseas schools
Do graphic essay based on four gospels
ARMEH

gorgonzolah @ 2009-02-14T23:58:00

2009-02-14T16:09:30Z

I really wish I had words to say how I feel now.

You know how you wake up in the morning after drinking something too sweet/sour the night before?

The taste in your mouth, a bitter, unpleasant yet pleasant, aftertaste. It lingers.